Before I moved I made a promise to myself that no matter what happens I will be thankful for everything. That is one of the most important things I have that has kept me happy and smiling through everything I've experienced. I consider it the most important thing I possess. It keeps me fighting with constant determination and resilience and gives me peace with this career. When I hear bad news from an audition or things seem like they aren't going my way I remember all the things I can already be so proud of. I am proud of what I am doing here and I have been through low times, including the last week, feeling frustrated and impatient like I should be progressing more. One of my worst thoughts is becoming almost defeated in patience and waiting quietly for my moment. I want to keep busy working in any way I can. I'm working on a voice reel which I will complete soon. I want to try stand up comedy before the year is out. I have written a short film I want to direct in November. I want to make another comedy song. If I want to stay happy I need to work hard for it and these projects of my own will keep me perfectly busy and so so passionate and excited about what I'm doing here once more. I'm going to plunge straight into sounding dramatic again and say London really has changed and shaped my character more than any other experience I've been through. The best decision I ever made was to do this despite not knowing how it would end, and it hasn't ended. I'm still here. I'm still acting. And I will leave my legacy on this place yet.
Thursday, 4 September 2014
Around this time 2 years ago today I moved to London. I'm trying hard to think of a sentence to follow that doesn't sound too dramatic or cheesy like 'I've been through so much during that time' or 'What an adventure it's been so far' even though they're both true. It's hard to gage my expectations 2 years ago with the reality now as I genuinely had no idea what would happen 2 weeks after my move let alone 2 years. People say they respect me for my move and I appreciate that, but I kind of had no idea what I was doing. There was no plan for London when I arrived. Just to meet one friend who was an actress and take things slowly. I owe her a great deal. I met with Kate Hollowood and she set me straight, telling me all I needed to do to get an agent, that it would be hard, and that I would have to learn to be patient.